Things to do before college starts again!

Okay so I move back to college on the 26th of August and I’m so excited!!! I’ve been waiting for this day so (im)patiently and I can’t wait! Just about 20 more days. But this month is going to be really busy and I have to sort out some stuff before I leave and so here’s my list –

1. Finish the work my mom’s given me (content writing, social media stuff etc.)
2. Finish my Coursera course so I don’t have to juggle it with school work once I go back.
3. Meet some friends (not from college) that I haven’t met yet or haven’t met enough this summer.
4. Pack for college! Organize stuff and decide what I want to take or not take.
5. Finish work for the art commission I have pending.
6. Decide on courses, timetable and what I want to major in!
7. Spend some time with my sister.
8. SLEEP.
9. Read at least a couple more books.
10. Turn 19! Now this isn’t something I have to do but something that’s like going to happen very soon! Like on the 23rd! And I’m kinda excited 🙂

That’s it for now but this is going to be quite a month! Just marking off day on my calendar till the 26th!

Quick Update~

So I just wanted to write a quick update post so here goes –

1. I had a paper due last night at midnight which I managed to do. I have one due at 5pm today and then one due on the 7th. And then I have an exam on the 10th after which I’m free for the summer!!!
2. I had my last therapy session with my therapist because she’s leaving so when I come back to college in August, I’m going to have a new therapist probably. If I choose to continue therapy, that is.
3. I just went for the best walk ever, look out for my next post for details.
4. I really want to do a literature major but my mom says that I can’t. She wants me to do a psychology major. This means that there are going to be some tough decisions to be made soon.
5. I NEED SLEEP. Finals week is stressful AF.

How are you guys?

Updates~

Hello! I haven’t been blogging properly for so long and honestly, I miss it! 

So I’m just going to post some updates vreifly about everything I haven’t posted properly about and then I’m going to finally start blogging regularly again! Here goes – 

1. I attended a poetry show where a lot of amazing poets including Sarah Kay and Phil Kaye performed and it was brilliant. I laughed and I cried and I clicked and clapped and it was just a really great evening! I went with a bunch of friends so that made it even better! 🙂 

2. I attended a series of workshops about poetry and mental health and they were good but the best part was that one of the workshops was conducted by Sarah and Phil and it was amazing OMG I love them so much! Sarah Kay is genuinely the reason I got into poetry and I told her this and it was amazing I cannot get over it. 

3. Half sem of semester two of college is over! Mid term/spring break is currently going on and I cannot believe how fast time is flying! It’s been a very busy semester but it’s been good-ish I think. 

4. I’m working a lot on my mental health. I’m going to therapy once a week and I might even start going twice a week on alternate weeks and idk I’m trying my best. 

5. I was a part of the evensatvteam for a production of The Vagina Monologues in college and it was great even though it was VERY stressful and I did have a breakdown in between but I think we pulled it off! 

6. I made a bunch of new friends. I love making friends!!! 

7. Mental health hasn’t been very good lately but as I said, I’m working on it! 

8. Once college starts next week, my psych course which is a 300 level course is going to start and I’m quite scared but I chose this (sort of) so just going to have to deal! 

9. I started painting again and watching things and even reading a little. For me that means summer is coming and I’m getting better! 

10. Lately, there’s a lot that’s been going on in college in terms of issues between the admin and the student body and while I’m not going to go into the details, it’s stressing me out quite a bit. Hopefully, some of it will get sorted out once college starts. 

11. I’ve been making summer plans! Initially I was planning to travel a bit with friends but that’s not happening any more. So I’m looking at internships and just interesting things that I can do. I’ve applied to a few internships but I don’t know what’ll happen yet, just have to wait I suppose. Also, if anyone has any interesting internship, cheap travel etc ideas pls let me know! 

I guess that’s it for now, would love to know what you guys have been up to! 🙂 

Revisiting 2016

Okay so I started writing this post in the last week of December but I’ve only just gotten around to completing and posting it! Oops!

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So last year around this time, I did a post called Revisiting 2015 and I basically wrote down the major events from every month and so I decided to do that again for this year! This year has been quite eventful so this might be a long post but here goes –

January –

January was when the college application process was going on and most of the month I was busy with that. I also hit 300 followers on my blog in Jan. In terms of mental health, it wasn’t the best month but I managed. I also wrote a post about mental disorders at that time and about how they’re not a joke. Mom also fell a little sick at that time but it turned out okay.

February –

Valentines day! Even though I’m not a huge fan of that holiday, it was still pretty fun. We had some very cute celebrations in school and then my then girlfriend made some very lovely plans and it was a nice day! Then I also heard back from the one art school I applied to and found out that I got in. It was a very bittersweet moment and I wasn’t able to go but I’m happy now despite the choices I made so it’s cool!

March –

March is when Easter is and reminded me of a friend who recently passed away with whom I used to celebrate Easter. March is also when my sister’s birthday is! She turned 13 last year and I made her a Harry Potter cake and wand and map and all that stuff. I also asked a friend of mine to prom this month. And finally, I started a new Instagram account about feminism etc (here).

April –

I wrote a series of posts about graduation this month. We also had prom this month which meant lots of preparations for that too! Post that we had gratitude day and scribble day. We expressed our gratitude for our teachers and then we scribbled notes on each other’s t shirts. It was a lot of fun! The next day we had our graduation ceremony which was unreal and amazing and slightly overwhelming! Had to make a huge decision regarding college and finally decided to stay in my own country for college. Also, April was so busy with studying for finals! Also, I was one month clean in April.

May –

My finals for high school were in May! they went on for pretty much the entire month till about the 20th! Then I went for a friend’s birthday the day after exams ended and two days later I left for my Graduation trip to Goa with my friends! It was AMAZING!

June –

To be honest most of June is a big blank for me. I think I was so relieved that high school was over that I wasted most of the month!

July –

I was doing an internship in July. I also got my results back for my exams and I was pretty happy. I also got a drastic haircut. Basically I used to have long ans wavy hair and I got it cut quite short and straightened! And finally, I went on a trip to Bangalore and I met my baby cousin and it was great!

August –

I started college in August! And I also turned 18, on the second day of college actually! August was so crazy with college packing and I was so restless and it was no nice and bad and ahhh! So basically summer ending and college starting.

September –

September was insanely busy. I was getting to know my roommate, making friends, getting adjusted to college, learning to manage my studies and everything all at once! I only wrote one post about college this month!

October –

So by now college was in full swing. I had 4 courses and I was finding things pretty difficult cuz well stupid mental health but I was managing. I was also crushing on a bunch of people and idk it was nice. It wasn’t a bad month tbh.

November –

November was a horrible month in terms of mental health. Slept through most of the days tbh. But there were a few good bits. Finished two years on WordPress!!! Also attended my first Pride parade, IT WAS AMAZING OMG! Also, I wrote a post that I’m quite proud of and it was about like people watching on the metro.

December –

So I started my second internship this month. Finished my first semester of college. Christmas!!! And I wrote two posts that I was really happy with, Calcutta and A yellow couch. I also wrote a post about the good bits of 2016.

AND THAT’S IT! DONE WITH 2016!!!

 

 

Updates!

Okay so I’ve had so much to say in the past some time but somehow every time I sit to write, I just can’t. My mind either goes blank or goes into over drive and all the words come out all jumbled. So I’ve decided to write practically. Shut off the feelings part of my mind for a bit and write in a calm and logical manner. So here we go –

1. Things have been kind of difficult because I’ve been at home, but I’m trying to deal with it. Usual stuff with mom, tbh.
2. Christmas was fun but also not. It’s winter.
3. I’ve been going through a bad phase again and I don’t know, I’m finding it harder than usual to talk to my friends so it’s just been hard. I spoke to my teacher and I have finally made another appointment with the psychologist for Feb 13. I’ve also met the councilor at college a few times and I’m going to meet her again once I get back to college. This is good. This is progress.
4. I got an F in math last semester so I have to do the course again. So I’m taking it again next semester. Hopefully it’ll go better this time.
5. I met some friends from high school. I don;t know how I feel about that. I actually feel too much and I can’t go into that right now. This is supposed to be calm and logical.
6. I plan to keep myself really busy next semester. And I plan to attend classes. I have to get out of bed at a normal hour. I have to learn to do this on my own. I’ve taken up at few things outside of academics so that should keep me busy. I plan to do all my readings and stuff for class and eat meals on time etc so hopefully I’ll manage.
7. 2016 has been a difficult, good, bad, eventful year and I want to write a post with a bit about every month like I did last year. Soon.
8. I’m also so confused in terms of my crushes and shit. I don’t even know.
9. Too many fucking feeling. I can’t.
10. My writing quality has gotten so bad because I just can’t put my thoughts together. I hate it. I have to start writing properly again. I will start writing properly again.
11. I can do this. Whatever this is.

Okay bye.

Goa Diaries ~ Day 2

So I’m finally back home from Goa and now I’m going to write about the entire trip day wise. I was gonna do this while I was there but I got too busy. Anyway, this is my Day 2 post and you can read the Day 1 post here.

So this morning we went to Baga Beach. So upon reaching, we kinda realized it was too hot to go into the beach right away and so we spent some time shopping in the nearby market and bought hats and some really pretty stones and stuff. Then we decided to head to this beach shack restaurant kind of place called Brittos for lunch and the food was amazing! I had some chicken and fries and some seafood and some drinks including a chocolate slushie and a long island ice tea!

I’m the one in the grey dress btw

After this we just went into the beach and chilled in the sun bed thingys! We talked and laughed and listened to music and stuff. Then cuz it was really hot, we went to another nearby shack and had some breezers and stuff. Then we decided to go to get some ice cream and explore the place a bit.

At the ice cream shop we net this hippie couple who were so cool. They lived in Virginia but n a whim moved down to south america and now they were here biking from Mumbai to Goa and further south. They  were quite funny too!

After this we went back to the beach and went up to the ocean and chilled in the water for a bit before we had to go back cuz one of our friends wasn’t feeling too well.

On the way home we bought some alcohol, rum and vodka basically and we went home and played the drinking game, Never Have I Ever. For those who don’t know how it’s played, I’ll explain. So one person in the group says Never have I ever… *insert something they have never done here* and everyone who has done that takes a shot or a sip of their drink.

So we basically made it kinda sexual but not entirely and I drank at almost all of them so at the end of the night, I was the most drunk. Laughing, crying and singing and dancing and idk what else. I don’t remember all of it. All I know is I was continuously talking about my crush! Anyway, that was quite fun and thankfully I woke up without a hangover the next morning yay!!

So yeah, basically this was day 2! I enjoyed it a lot and it was actually a great day! #takemeback

~Updates!

Life has been so busy, I’ve barely been able to write at all. And like the quality of my posts has gone down so much but I promise I’ll write better stuff as soon as I get time, though it’ll probably be after exams. Actually it might even be sooner if I choose to procrastinate on studying for finals by blogging instead! Anyway, moving on, here are the updates –

1. Exams start on the 2nd so just like 2/3 more days left! Feeling kinda prepared now. Well not exactly prepared but better than last week!
2. I planned a surprise party for my friend’s birthday! Her birthday is on the second but we’re celebrating on the third cuz that was the most convenient date for everyone, including her (I checked with her sister!) It’s gonna be pretty good I think. Arranged for the cake and everything. I’m so excited cuz she’s turning 18! I’m also gonna be meeting a lot of people from my previous school so let’s see how that goes.
3. My sleep/study schedule has gotten so messed up! I stay up all night to study. Then I sleep at like 8 in the morning and wake up at 2 30 in the afternoon. Then sometimes sleep again around 6 in the evening or otherwise I just waste time/relax/blog/whatever. Then after dinner I get back to studying till the morning. So yeah, it’s kinda messed up but it’s working really well for me!
4. I have been thinking of so many potentially good blog post ideas but I can’t seem to put them into words!
5. I enrolled at my college and I’m so excited!! I have been going through the college’s Instagram page and Facebook page and looking at pictures and everything and it seems great!
6. I really like the fact that I’ve been talking to fellow bloggers more since I made my blog email. I’ve had a chance to get to so many bloggers a bit better and even discussed potential guest posts etc. In case anyone wants to get in touch, it’s myoverflowingthoughts@gmail.com
7. Okay can we just take a moment to talk about how amazing of a move The Pursuit of Happyness is! I love it so much and omg the feels.
8. So as I mentioned that I’ve been staying up all night, my favourite thing to do in the middle of the night is to have tea. So around 2 0r 3 in the night, I go and make myself a cup of amazing and kinda sweet tea! I love it so much. I love tea in general but there’s something different about having it all by yourself in the middle of the night with  some nice music playing. Honestly!

Okay so that’s basically it! Not very interesting but whatever, that’s how life is at the moment! I would love to hear about things going on with you guys so please leave a comment if you like or email me! 🙂

~Updates~

Okay so even though life has pretty much been kinda dull, I feel like writing an updates post so here goes –

1. 16 days till finals and 35 days till the end of finals!!! I can’t wait to be done.
2. I am terrified of writing on group chats. Honestly they are too much stress. I have to proofread my messages a million times and idk it’s all too much but I wrote on a group chat today! I actually spoke to people!
3. I haven’t cut for almost over a month sort of. Okay so I’ll explain. I promised myself on March 4th that I wouldn’t cut till prom which was on the 7th of April. I couldn’t keep the promise and I cut on 16th March. But then I didn’t again till prom and so that was sort of a month with one relapse. But it’s 15th today and I still haven’t cut and so it’s actually a month from the last time! But I am so desperate to cut I don’t know how I’m managing but I am.
4. I’ve been watching so many movies when I should actually been studying. I’ve seen about 6 of them in the past couple of days!
5. I have to make my college decision this weekend!!! I really hope I make the right choice!
6. So like we had a new year thing yesterday. It’s basically a new year thing of the place I come from sort of. I’m not sure how to explain it. Anyway, we didn’t really celebrate yesterday cuz we were all really busy. Really early in the morning before school, we watched this new year program that comes on TV on the regional channel but that’s it. But today, my grandmother is making this kind of traditional dish that I love for Lunch and I’m quite excited! Only her and me are at home for Lunch so she made something I like but my sis doesn’t! I really love this food actually! It’s basically potatoes cooked with/in poppy seeds idk how else to explain it but it’s delicious!
7. I haven’t drawn/painted anything since end of January when I submitted my Art portfolio. I literally haven’t even opened my art stuff or anything. I miss it but at the same time I haven’t been in the mood and haven’t had time either. To be honest, this will sound a little stupid but I feel like I’m done. Like I don’t want to draw or paint at all again. Idk.
8. I’m thinking of making a blog email so I can talk to more people while remaining anonymous. I think I will actually. Maybe this weekend or like soon.

Hmm that’s about it. Pretty dull, I know. I should go study ugh

Updates!!!

A lot has happened over the past few days and so here goes.

1. I got into art school!! I got into an art school in Chicago. I actually only applied to one art school and I didn’t think I’d get in but I applied anyway cuz I didn’t want to regret not applying later and I heard back last night and I got in!! I’m so happy about this. Like I almost can’t believe it! And I also got a $21k scholarship so like 5-6k a year! That’s not a lot but it’s something! So yeah, this is good. It also helps me believe that fact that I’m good at art and like believe that I can do it!
2. I bought cloth material for my prom dress today. I went to this market in a neighboring city where you only get cloth material and it was so cool! I bought two pieces, one red and one blue. I’m trying to design my dress now and then I’ll finally decide which one to use.
3. I got stuck in traffic for over 4hrs yesterday on the way back from school. It was horrible. There were some protests and riots happening in my city and so many roads were blocked and there was traffic everywhere!
4. I haven’t self harmed for almost two weeks.
5. I’m trying to get over all the crap with my mother cuz I feel like I can’t let everything she says affect me so much. 6. I’m trying to make myself better. I’m trying to eat better and sleep better and just work on myself. So that way I can go to college in a better state of mind.
7. I made a friend throughout tumblr a while back and then we also connected on other social media. She seemed to be a really nice girl and we talked a lot and it was all cool. Then one day just before Christmas, she posted a picture on instagram wearing a sweater that said OCD: obsessive Christmas Disorder. I didn’t know what to do and so I ignored it. Then she put that as her display on whatsapp and so I decided to talk to her about it and I messaged her and explained how it was very offensive and all that. She apologized a lot and she said she didn’t even realise it was offensive and took it down immediately. So I guess that was good and I think that this is the reason we need more awareness about these issues cuz a lot of people don’t even understand such problems!
8. I have tennis class tomorrow and I’m dreading it.

Anyway, that’s all for now! Let me know what going on with you guys in the comments! 🙂

Updates on my life

So some stuff has been going on and so yeah here goes
1. It’s been three weeks since I last self harmed so that’s a huge deal for me! I’m kinda proud of myself.
2. I got into 4 colleges and I have scholarships from two of them. One is a huge scholarship and the other well, isn’t that great but still, it’s exciting.
3. I’ve been having a really bad time with things with my mother but I’m trying to deal with that.
4. I feel like I’m blogging a lot less. Idk, I’m just not motivated to do anything these days!
5. I have new crushes. And yeah, I always end up getting multiple crushes at the same time. And like one is on a girl which is fine, but like the other one is on a guy! And like idk what to think cuz well I thought I was gay. And the weird part is the yes, I have a crush on him but I can’t ever imagine sleeping with him or with any guy so idek!
6. I hate school these days. Nothing happens and I feel like I’m wasting my time!
7. I want to be really happy but I end up being really sad and like I don’t know what I’m doing.
8. I need to finish so much work that I keep putting of and I need to clean my shelves and organise things!
9. I’m obsessed with pasta! I love it and I can eat it everyday.
10. A while back I watched this movie called Blue is the warmest color. It was in French and I watched it with English subtitles and I loved it so much. I watched it cuz like it was about a same sex couple and I haven’t really seen any other movies like that and I always end up watching heterosexual stuff so this was so nice for a change! I really loved it.

Yeah I can’t think of anything else so that’s about it. Hope you all are doing okay and I would love to hear about what’s going on in your lives! 🙂