Graduation #5 // Prom!!!

Prom night was so good! I literally had so much fun! I went in with a few friends of mine. Upon entering we voted for prom king and queen. Then we just hung out with different people, socialized a lot.

After that I went to get something to drink with some friends. Got a lot of compliments on my dress and hair and everything. In fact everyone looked so pretty. Especially crush. She is so beautiful omg. Then they announced prom king and queen and it was really cool. They got sashes and crowns and stuff. Then we cut a cake which I didn’t end up eating.

After that the king and queen started the first slow dance and we all joined. I really wanted to slow dance and so I asked a friend and she said yes so that was cool! I actually didn’t end up eating at all. I guess I was too excited. Danced a lot!

Was wearing heels so by the end of the day my feet started hurting like a bitch. But overall the evening was good. However, the night that followed was terrible but I don’t want to get into that shit right now. Gonna focus on the positives. Oh and if you guys wanna see pics, here is my personal Instagram account so you can see them there! 🙂

Graduation #4 // Prom

So tonight is my Senior Prom. I have literally dreamer about this for so ling and it’s finally here!! So here is a checklist of the things I need to do/take –

Prom ticket 
Date
Camera I have to remember to take this! 
Prom Dress
Shoes
Hairstyle I know what I’m going to do, I just need to do it! 
Makeup I am going to have to get my mom to do my makeup cuz I’m pretty bad at it! 
Paint my nails I don’t know what colour I should do cuz like my dress is blue but I’m thinking that i should paint my nails black idk. 

So my dress is basically a really dark blue colour. I’m wearing black heels with that. I’m going to let my hair down after I get in Blow-dried. I’m also going to put this silver coloured shiny comb thing in my hair! I’m pretty happy with my whole dress and things. (I’ll maybe post a picture later)

The plan is that we are going to meet at a friend’s place and then go together from there. The event starts at 6. We got out tickets a few days back so that’s cool. I’m quite excited!! My shoes are new so I’m just hoping I don’t have a problem but the rest should be good!

My date is really cute and very nice so I’m happy about that too and also I can’t wait to see my crush. My date is not my crush btw. My date is just a friend so it’s a friend date and I can’t wait to see my crush. She’s going to look so beautiful! Anyway, I’m so excited. I just hope I’m not disappointed! 🙂

 

 

Graduation #3

My friend is Valedictorian!!! That is so so amazing! She totally deserves it and I was hoping it would be her. In fact I kinda guessed it would be her and I’m so happy it’s her. I hope she’s happy about it too! She has to give a speech on grad and I’m so looking forward to it and I’m going to clap so much! AHHH I’m excited!

Okay, moving on, Grad is 2 days away! Literally 2 days! I can’t wait. Omg I’ve been kinda worried about a really stupid thing. We have to wear a Saree and I’m also wearing heels. And I’m so scared that I’ll trip and fall and embarrass myself! I’m hoping and praying that that doesn’t happen!

I have prom tonight and so I’m going to write a post about that and one more grad related post today or at least I’m going to try to!

Periods and prom dates

So today was kinda like the unofficial last day for us 12th graders. Like officially we’re still supposed to go but most people aren’t going to show up after this. We have prom in the first week of April and I’ve kinda been thinking of asking someone and I decided to do it today.

My friends kept asking me if I would ask this girl, S who I’m really good friends with so I finally decided to do it. So all day I kept trying to do it but I’d always chicken out. Then I thought that I would ask her in the lesson before lunch or in lunch but I couldn’t find her anywhere. Then in the next lesson, I had History and so I told my teacher I had to go to the washroom and I went to find S. Someone told me that she would be in the library. And so I went and got a slip to go to the medical centre and then I went to the library to find her. I found her and asked if she would go to the medical centre with me cuz I didn’t want to go alone. So she agreed.

So we went and I got a sanitary pad. And like I am having my periods currently but I didn’t need to actually get a pad but I needed an excuse to talk to her.

So I started talking about prom and about prom dresses and all that. Then finally I gave her a tiny pop-up card and asked – would you do me the honor of going to prom with me? And she immediately said yes! so that was great and so I have a date to prom!

Then we were just walking and she said she needs to use the washroom and so I walked her there but I had to run for class so I told her I’d talk to her later and I left. It was all very nice. I’m so glad I asked her. 🙂

Then I went back to class and told my teacher that I went to the medical centre and he asked why? So I said that I started my period and I needed a pad and he said okay. I don’t get why people are so embarrassed about periods and have to hide pads and stuff. And ugh, I have bad cramps but oh well.

The only tiny downside of today was that for some reason I decided to tell my mom that I had a date to prom and she just went all like “but it’s a girl date” in like a mean way and like she doesnt really know that im not straight but eh, I don’t care. A friend of mine asked if I was planning on coming out to my sister anytime soon but I just said no!

Anyway, I’m really happy with my date for prom!!

Updates!!!

A lot has happened over the past few days and so here goes.

1. I got into art school!! I got into an art school in Chicago. I actually only applied to one art school and I didn’t think I’d get in but I applied anyway cuz I didn’t want to regret not applying later and I heard back last night and I got in!! I’m so happy about this. Like I almost can’t believe it! And I also got a $21k scholarship so like 5-6k a year! That’s not a lot but it’s something! So yeah, this is good. It also helps me believe that fact that I’m good at art and like believe that I can do it!
2. I bought cloth material for my prom dress today. I went to this market in a neighboring city where you only get cloth material and it was so cool! I bought two pieces, one red and one blue. I’m trying to design my dress now and then I’ll finally decide which one to use.
3. I got stuck in traffic for over 4hrs yesterday on the way back from school. It was horrible. There were some protests and riots happening in my city and so many roads were blocked and there was traffic everywhere!
4. I haven’t self harmed for almost two weeks.
5. I’m trying to get over all the crap with my mother cuz I feel like I can’t let everything she says affect me so much. 6. I’m trying to make myself better. I’m trying to eat better and sleep better and just work on myself. So that way I can go to college in a better state of mind.
7. I made a friend throughout tumblr a while back and then we also connected on other social media. She seemed to be a really nice girl and we talked a lot and it was all cool. Then one day just before Christmas, she posted a picture on instagram wearing a sweater that said OCD: obsessive Christmas Disorder. I didn’t know what to do and so I ignored it. Then she put that as her display on whatsapp and so I decided to talk to her about it and I messaged her and explained how it was very offensive and all that. She apologized a lot and she said she didn’t even realise it was offensive and took it down immediately. So I guess that was good and I think that this is the reason we need more awareness about these issues cuz a lot of people don’t even understand such problems!
8. I have tennis class tomorrow and I’m dreading it.

Anyway, that’s all for now! Let me know what going on with you guys in the comments! 🙂

PROM

Okay, so I decided that I should go to prom and so I went. It was… interesting. We got ready in the school only and all of us got ready together so that part of the evening was fun. Helping with each other’s makeup, hair and choosing dresses and all that. I went with a couple of my friends to prom and everyone kind of walked in on a red carpet which was pretty scary for me, but it was okay. Then, my crush (this girl I keep talking about – I have referred to her as R in some of my previous posts!) walked in with her date and my god, It was such a heart-breaking but beautiful moment for me. She wore a Green dress and she looked amazing. Then initially I just hung around with a few people, got pretty bored. Then they announced prom king and queen, which was nice. This was followed by the cake cutting ceremony and then everyone started dancing and all. The dancing part was fun and so was the eating part! Then the prom king and queen did a slow dance and then all the couples joined in. It was so beautiful to watch. R dancing with her date and I literally could not keep my eyes of her, she looked so beautiful. Then we took a history class picture which was really nice. I went with this friend of mine (who I have referred to as Shaz in my previous posts) but I kind of ended up not hanging out with her much so that was kind of bad and my shoe broke halfway through but it was fine! Overall, It was alright, It was not amazing but whatever.

Prom!

Our prom is this Thursday. I have been so excited about it for so long but as it nearing I am thinking of not going. I really want to go but it’s too much hassle. I will have to think of what to wear and how to dress up and all that. I was thinking of wearing a dress like most girls are supposed to but if I do I will be so self-conscious. I will just keep thinking about whether I am looking all right and stuff. Plus the moment I put on my dress my weight will bother me, my pimples will bother me, and I will look in the mirror and find all the faults I can about my body and make myself feel bad about it. I will most definitely feel fat and ugly.

Plus I won’t even have anyone to hang out with. Out of the few friends I have, most of them are not coming. So I will not know who to talk to and who to socialize with so I will probably end up standing in one corner and talking to no one. Like I know I can talk to other people but they all have their social circles and friends they want to have fun with and I do not want to interfere. So I am really in two minds about whether I should go or not. I really want to go but I don’t know if I should.