Our prom is this Thursday. I have been so excited about it for so long but as it nearing I am thinking of not going. I really want to go but it’s too much hassle. I will have to think of what to wear and how to dress up and all that. I was thinking of wearing a dress like most girls are supposed to but if I do I will be so self-conscious. I will just keep thinking about whether I am looking all right and stuff. Plus the moment I put on my dress my weight will bother me, my pimples will bother me, and I will look in the mirror and find all the faults I can about my body and make myself feel bad about it. I will most definitely feel fat and ugly.
Plus I won’t even have anyone to hang out with. Out of the few friends I have, most of them are not coming. So I will not know who to talk to and who to socialize with so I will probably end up standing in one corner and talking to no one. Like I know I can talk to other people but they all have their social circles and friends they want to have fun with and I do not want to interfere. So I am really in two minds about whether I should go or not. I really want to go but I don’t know if I should.