4000 views!?

I checked the insights – stats page again today and I have over 4000 views! I cannot believe that!!

The crap I write has been viewed over 4000 times since I started writing. That is amazing. It might be a small number for a lot of people but for me that’s huge! I’m so grateful to anyone who reads my blog. Really!

As soon as I saw it, the first person I wanted to tell was my friend SG becuase well, she was here when this blog started. She was the first one I showed it to. But then I realised I couldn’t do that. I couldn’t just message her and tell her and bother her so I decided against it even though I really wanted to.
Then I thought of all the other people I would usually tell something like this to. So I messaged Annie and Shivi and told them and they were happy and all. And I thought maybe I should tell Mousey and Kaii and Sim but then I didnt think that they would care and so I didn’t. And that made me slightly sad! 
God, I have a huge talent for this! Making myself sad over good things! 
Anyway, then I thought that I could just write a post about it which a least a few people would read, as suggested by my stats page and so I did!

Okay so the point was that I’m kinda happy about the 4000 views and I almost find it unbelievable! Yeah. Okay this is a good thing! Yay! 

Pro/Con list

Okay so I have a situation and so in classic Rory Gilmore style, I decided to make a pro/con list.

The list is about whether I should or should not tell my mom about everything (cutting, social anxiety/ depression or whatevr). So here goes –

PROS –

• If I tell her than maybe I can get actual professional help which might lead to me feeling better about things. This includes – not cutting so much – sleeping better – not feeling suicidal – not feeling like shit – not having panic attacks. Better mental health basically. That’s all I can think of right now but yeah that’s a lot.

CONS –

• It will stress my mom out.
• I’m supposed to be the one taking care of my mom, not the other way around. I know that that’s weird but that’s how it works in my world.
• Right now, I take care of a lot of things such taking care of my sis and grandmother when my mom is not at home and stuff so if she thinks that I’m not doing okay then she’ll worry about all of those things also.
• My mom is stressed out enough with all her work and her health and paying for school and college and taking care of everything basically. I don’t want her to stress out about me. I don’t want to be a burden on her.
• Seeing a doc costs money.

See the list shows more cons than pros but the value of the pros is a lot so I don’t even know what the conclusion of this whole list is. So, basically this was a waste! Ugh. I have to think more.

#BloggerLove

The amazing blogger Ayele adapted a tag originally created by the YouTuber Lily Singh, to make it for bloggers and called it #BloggerLove. This is such an great idea to promote friendship and support each other in the blogging community!

The basic idea of this is to compliment other bloggers to show what we like about their blog and compliment them. So here’s my post!

Elm –

Elm, you’re so amazing! You are always here to support me and give me great advice whenever I need it and for that I’m really grateful! You’re a blogging inspiration for me and I really look forward to reading your posts!

Em –

You are so kind and understanding! All your comments are so thoughtful and helpful. You’re so dedicated to your blog and have become so successful and that’s great!

Luna –

Reading your posts makes my day, they are so interesting! You’re so caring and always there for me with helpful comments and you’re so supporting! Thank you so much! Oh and also, I really like your blogging name Luna! It reminds me a bit of Luna from Harry Potter! 🙂

The Finicky Cynic –

I really enjoy reading your posts especially the ones about all your vacations. Your posts are really varied and always enjoyable. Thank you for all the amazing comments and everything!

Violet Starre –

I’ve only recently come across your blog but I already really like it! I really hope to get to know you better!

UnfashionableCupcake –

Your posts are so fun to read while being insightful and I love that! Your blog seems to be growing steadily and that’s so great! Also, I really appreciate your comments so thank you!

Honestly, there are a lot of other people I would like to talk about but if I start doing that, this post would run endlessly! Thank you so much to everyone who bothers to read my blog and I honestly enjoy reading and commenting on your blogs!