Dear Dad #Day12

[Today’s letter was meant to be to someone who you hate most/caused you the most pain, and I thought that my dad fits for both these things. So here goes-]

Dear Dad,

So where have you been all these years? Some time back I heard you transferred to Mumbai? And what do you do? I mean where do you work? I get this question a lot you know. “what does your dad do?” and I always have to say I don’t know because I honestly don’t and then I have to explain that my parents are divorced and I have had zero contact with you for about 8 years. 

Well I haven’t ever told you this before because i haven’t really had the chance, but I really hate you. I mean how could you do that to us. After everything mom did for you, how could you do that to her? And during the divorce, you refused to pay child support and wanted zero contact, really? You really din’t want us huh? And you think that one crappy birthday card you send every year will make up for everything? And by the way, you spelled our names wrong in some of the cards! 

You’ve hurt me so much and in every possible way. Mentally, emotionally and physically. I really honestly want nothing to do with you ever again. And yet at times I find myself thinking how different life would be if you were still in my life! But you never will be. Earlier I used to think that maybe after I’m 18, I’ll go see you someday but I really don’t think that’s going to happen. 

When people ask me about my father, I usually say that i don’t have one. People give me odd looks, but it’s true. After what you did, I don’t think I can ever call you my father.

Have a nice life, or not actually. 

Bye. 

[If you are thoroughly confused as to what I am talking about and what he did and want to know more, click here]

Day 12 – My favorite Quote(s)

I am supposed to write my favorite quote but I just cannot choose one, so here are some of my favorite ones-

“You just do it. You force yourself to get up. You force yourself to put one foot before the other, and God damn it, you refuse to let it get to you. You fight. You cry. You curse. Then you go about the business of living. That’s how I’ve done it. There’s no other way.” – Elizabeth Taylor
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“Something inside is hurting you – that’s why you need cigarettes or whiskey, or music turned so fucking loud you can’t think.”
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“To know what a person has done, and to know who a person is, are very different things.” – Hannah Kent, Burial Rites
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Its funny, she laughs like she has never known love, lonliness or the darkness of night andyet in her silence I know she is familiar with far worse and far greater than I may ever wish to know. – Tyler kent white
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“Well, if you had one phone call to make before you died, who would you call, what would you say, and why are you waiting?” —Unknown
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She never looked nice. She looked like art, and art wasn’t supposed to look nice; it was supposed to make you feel something.
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“Being an artist means forever healing your own wounds and at the same time endlessly exposing them.” – Annette Messager
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Everyone has a 2am and a 2pm personality. I’m more interested in the monster you become at 2am rather than the human being you pretend to be at 2pm.’
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“Yes, I’m drunk. And you’re beautiful. And tomorrow morning, I’ll be sober but you’ll still be beautiful.” – The Dreamers (2003)
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I am homesick for a place I am not sure even exists. One where my heart is full and my soul is understood.
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You’re a work of art. not everyone will understand you, but the ones who do, will never forget about you.
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I’ve been dancing with the stars again and they’re all whispering your name.
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“Never apologize for burning too brightly or collapsing into yourself every night. That is how galaxies are made.” -Tyler Kent White
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It is a frightening thought, that in one fraction of a moment you can fall in the kind of love that takes a lifetime to get over. But you make it all worth it.
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“You” he said, “are a terribly real thing in a terribly false world, and that, I believe, is why you are in so much pain.”
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