I used to need to bite my tongue from addressing these things but now it just comes natural to me. I notice everything, I’m self aware. I notice when there’s silence in places that were never quiet before. I notice the comments people make or how things are worded. I notice people’s behaviours towards me when their feelings (both good or bad) change towards me. I notice everything, I’ll never not notice. I also notice that not everything is worth addressing and more likely than not, it’s better to keep your observations to yourself and step back where you need to. Nothing should feel or be forced, it isn’t organic that way. xx

“Ex” Gay Is An Oxymoron…No Wonder, Since Morons Believe In It

February 11, 2015 IvyLeave a comment

Umm, What is this??

February 9, 2015May 7, 2016 Ivy7 Comments

Warning- this is just a stupid rant post. Read at your own risk!

So in one of my previous posts, I talked about this girl who I had a huge crush on. Let’s call her R. and as I said R is in my psychology class. There is another girl in my psychology class (let’s call her A). A is also in my world religion class. So the other day, I went to my world religion class, but for some reason I was late. So the only vacant seat was the one across from A. so I went and sat down. Since the moment I sat down, all I could think of was kissing A. I do not even have a crush on her, but I could not get my mind off her. I kept trying to concentrate on studying religion but my mind kept going back to how beautiful she was and how much I wanted to kiss her.

Now, I am so confused. Do I have a thing for her (A)? Then what about R? I think I am going crazy!! My mind is full of these thoughts that I can’t understand. Is it possible to like two people at one time??? Ughh, I really think my mind is going to explode.

recent developments…

February 9, 2015February 9, 2015 IvyLeave a comment

I just realized that sometimes the answer to our problems is really simple. But we are scared. We are all so scared of how we will look, and what people will think of us. We feel that if we do something which is not the most conventional thing to do, people will laugh at us and we will become an outcast. We are scared of standing alone. Even if we really believe in what we are standing for we need someone to support us. It scares me that because of all the conventions of my society, I may never really be able to do what I want, and be who I want. I am scared that I will just get lost in a crowd of followers, even if I don’t believe in what I am following. I want to leave my mark. I might not be able to leave a huge mark, I might not be a very famous person, I might not be a famous icon of change but maybe I could leave my mark in such a way that people around me respect me and care for me. So from today, I am going to try and speak my mind. I am going to try and tell people how I feel. And I am going to stand up for what I believe in. it might not always be easy, and many times I might be standing alone but I will try my best. I am not promising that I will always be able to do it, but I will speak my mind as and when possible. And maybe, just maybe this will help me increase my confidence level.

Her <3

February 5, 2015May 7, 2016 IvyLeave a comment

I have a huge crush on this girl in my school. She is one of the most beautiful person I have ever met. We aren’t exactly friends but we talk occasionally. She is an amazing dancer and she has the most amazing laugh! I can recognize her voice or her laugh anywhere. Only problem is as far as I know, she is straight. She is in my psychology class which is my favorite class and because of her presence its really difficult to concentrate! 🙂 She is like no one I have ever met before. I just want to be with her all the time. If people are rain, I am drizzle and she is a hurricane.

The Sisterhood of the World Bloggers Award!

February 4, 2015February 5, 2015 Ivy3 Comments

I have been really busy lately with school and all and so I have hardly had a chance to log onto wordpress. So today I decided to go through all the post I missed and I found out that I have been nominated for the sisterhood of the world bloggers award by The Finicky Cynic.

Thank you so much for nominating me and I am glad to know that you like to read what I write. 🙂

So the rules are as follows-

Post the award logo, thank the blogger who nominated you, answer their questions they left you, leave ten questions of your own to your nominee’s, and nominate seven people.

1. What is your favorite ice cream flavor and why? My favorite ice cream flavor has to be cookie and cream. I just love the sudden crunch of the chocolate cookie in my mouth. My mouth is watering just thinking about it. 😛

2. What is the first physical feature you notice when you meet someone for the first time? I think the first thing I notice is either their eyes or their hair.

3. Dog or cat-lover? Dog lover all the way!

4. Who is one person you look up to? The one person I look up to and respect a lot is my mother. Even though we do not have the best relationship, I admire her a lot and appreciate everything she does for me.

5. If you could go anywhere in the world, where would it be? If I could go anywhere in the world, it would probably be New York city. That’s always been my dream!

6. Celebrity crush? Olivia Wilde and Mila Kunis

7. Favorite drink (alcoholic and non-alcoholic)? Frooti 😀

8. What is your favorite film/book/TV show? I never know how to answer this question, I cant just choose one! I think my favorite books at the moment are books by khaled hosseni and john green. I also love the divergent series, the hunger games series and the Harry potter series. My favorite TV show at the moment is the Gilmore Girls.

9. Typical clothes you wear on the daily? Its usually track pants and a random t-shirt at home and jeans with a t-shirt or a dress when i go out. And ofcourse, the school uniform!

10. Do you like pasta? Yes. I really like pasta. 🙂

Now, the 10 questions for you guys-

1. If you could wake up and do anything tomorrow (without having to worry about money or obligations), what would you do?

2. Where do you see yourself in 5 years?

3. What would be the title of your autobiography?

4. Which song is the theme song of your life?

5. Why did you start blogging?

6. What did you want to be when you were 10 years old?

7. What is your favorite food?

8. If you could choose to have one super power, what would it be and why?

9. What are three things you cannot live without?

10. Who is your favorite fictional character?