Yes, things suck right now and I’m not loving college and stuff but you know what, it’s going to be okay. I think I’ll make myself happy here. In India, this is the best place I can be in.
I was watching a flash poetry mob type video thing that the poetry club at my uni did and I just felt like okay, this is kinda where I belong I guess. I can shave my head or colour my hair some weird colour and no ones gonna care and I can be as openly not straight as I want and no one cares and it’s great. So while it may take me a while to be happy here, maybe this is where I’m going to be the happiest out of all my feasible options. So I’m going to make this good!
Doesn’t mean I’m not going to crib and at times cry and feel horrible and all that but at the end of the day, I just have to remind myself that it’s okay. It’s going to be okay.