I was dreading school so much today. I really really did not want to go. I had a really bad night and I was feeling really shitty. And also, one of my friend’s wasn’t coming and like she’s one of the people I actually like hanging out with and so I was just yeah, dreading school. But then I went anyway.
First lesson was math in which I basically kept zoning out and not real;y hearing what my teacher was saying. I also ended up writing some crappy poetry! Then I bunked the next two lessons to work on one of my essays. So I worked for the first lesson and then I was just hanging around in the next lesson. And idk, I just started crying really badly. Some stuff has been happening over the past few days, I don’t really want to get into details but yeah I started crying again. So then I just went to the restroom and washed my face and calmed myself down and by this time break started. I went and met my friend Mousey and she asked me whether I had been crying and I said I wasn’t! (Mousey, if you’re reading this, I’m sorry, I didn’t know what to say and I didn’t want to bother you.)
Then I bunked the next two lessons to work on my essay as well so that was kinda okay. I had English after that and I always like English lessons so that was good. This was followed by lunch which was okay but my mood was pretty bad. And then I had another math lesson which was free so I took a very short nap. After that I had history and Mousey’s in my class and so I met her and she asked if I was okay and I said I wasn’t and so she gave me a hug and told me some random jokes so that was nice.
Yeah, but the point of this really weird and random post is that today wasn’t horrible. It wasn’t good but it wasn’t very bad. I managed the entire day by myself, and I didn’t have a major breakdown. Which is kinda an improvement for me. So yeah, I know this post is pretty pointless but I’m just trying to make this day feel positive or something.