Not being able to talk to people who I used to talk to everyday and about everything is weird. Like I kinda have friends but I don’t feel like I can talk to most of them. And that’s my fault. I started this. I started this whole thing about isolating myself from people and I still want to go ahead and do it, it’s just a bit difficult. But I can do it.
It’s just that on nights like these, I could really do with a friend. I really want to talk to my friends but then I can’t. Cuz everyone has a life and they’re busy with their own stuff. And yeah, I have online friends I can talk to, but they’re something different about talking to people who know you in real life.
Today’s just been a difficult day. And I don’t feel too good right now. And I really wish I could talk to my friends but then again I can’t complain because I started this.