Why the fuck am I like this? I don’t understand. Do I not want to be happy? If I do, then why do I keep making myself feel miserable? It’s new year’s day for god’s sake and I’m still feeling like shit!
All this new year, new me crap is supposed to make you feel better right? SO then why do I not feel better?
Ugh, I hate myself for feeling like this. I have to be better than this! it’s new year and all I’ve wanted to do all day is stay curled up in bed with my phone. But then again, my phone is pretty useless because who am I even supposed to talk to?
I feel like such an idiot. It’s holiday season and I’m supposed to be happy instead I’m sitting here feeling like shit and I miss her.
But I can’t tell her that. I can’t tell anyone anything right now because it’s supposed to be a happy time and I don’t want to be a burden. Why do I feel like it’s going to be a long fucking night? Ugh.