So I don’t know if I’ve mentioned this here before but I have a bit of a crush on my friend Annie. But like I know that it’s never going to lead anywhere and I tend to get very attached and then I end up getting hurt. So a few days back I kind of decided that I’m going to distance myself a bit from her and so I stopped messaging her and even reduced talking to her in school.
She knows that I’ve been going through a rough patch and so she’s been trying to help out as much as she can but I stopped talking to her about what’s going on also.
(On a side note : I’ve been talking to a teacher of mine about what’s going on and that’s kinda helpful but I’ve stopped talking to my friends about it because I feel like I’m burdening them with my issues. )
Anyways, both of us have been really busy with school and so we haven’t talked much. So then I was doing okay but then today she messages me just to check in and see if I’m doing okay. And I love that she does this. Checks to make sure I’m okay but it makes it so difficult for me to distance myself from her then.
So she asked if I cut again and so I told her that I did a bit and so she started asking why and what happened and I told her all that.
And omg I like her so much. I can’t belive I like her so much.
Anyways, this post is pretty stupid because my thoughts are all over the place right now.
I had a bit of an issue with one of my friends on Wednesday. Well it wasn’t really an issue actually, my mind just made it an issue. I just really wanted this friend of mine to hang out with me in the last lesson of the day because I was feeling really horrible. But of course I didn’t tell her that. So we were just sitting and talking and then she wanted to go hang out with this guy and so I told her to go and that I didn’t mind but in all honestly I really wanted her to be around and I’m kind of obsessing over that a bit right now. It’s strange cuz lately I’ve just been finding it a bit difficult to talk to her. I don’t really know what it is. But whatevr, I’m not going to go into more details than this because there is a chance that she might read this and I don’t want to like hurt her or something.
I have my SAT tomorrow and I’m a bit nervous because I haven’t done so well on the practice tests so let’s see.
Yeah that’s all I guess. This post is very lame. I know. Okay bye now.